wait, it's not on the list!!!

in recent weeks i've been going to bed 1) exhausted and 2) slightly discouraged from my lack of "accomplishments" during the day.  yes i have two kiddos under the age of 3.  yes it is 100 degrees outside which makes inside play the only option.  and yes, when naptime hits i have little to no desire to be productive.  so last night i made a list of all the things i hoped to accomplish today.

i love lists.


i love crossing things off my list in sharpie.


this list might have too many things on it.


so when i got up this morning at 6:30 (ok, 6:40... but doesn't 6:30 sound so much earlier and much more painful?) i tried to start on the list, beginning with my quiet time.  yes i put that on the list --> 1) it helps to keep me accountable and 2) i like crossing things (anything) off my list. 

well the quiet time lasted for about 10 minutes before the babies demanded my attention.  so, does 10 minutes count as a quiet time?  what i'm really asking is, can i cross it off my list?  mostly joking... mostly.

now it's 7 am and i start feeding a baby.  then i change diaper #1.  then diaper #2.  then i start in on breakfast.  but then "big house" by audio adrenaline comes on the radio and i have to do a little song and dance number for the babies to show them how cool i was in 8th grade.  (and yes, that song is STILL on the radio).  first is applesauce and medicine for B.  then time to scramble the eggs for B.  now serve B her breakfast.

next G gets his applesauce and cereal. 

breakfast for babies ends, breakfast for mama begins.  and ends quickly.  diaper #3 calls.  oh and it's laundry day.  start the laundry.  time to dress B, and G, and mama.  and then it hits me.  NONE.OF.THIS.IS.ON.MY.LIST.

not the diapers. x3

not the breakfast. x3

not the "big house" song and dance

not the laundry. x6 loads

not the clothes. x4 -B required a wardrobe change.

and i'll be honest, there was a part of me that wanted to run to my list to write all this on it.  i wanted to feel like i was actually accomplishing something this morning.  but i resisted.  i'm learning (VERY SLOWLY) that all these small non-list tasks are F.U.L.L. of accomplishment, regardless of whether or not it is on the list.

i think that this is all a part of the joy (and growing pains) of learning to be a stay-at-home mom--> reevaluating and restructuring daily priorities and learning what are the true "to-dos" of the day.  so here's hoping that today you can cross something off your list while recognizing all the valuable things you did today that are not on your list.

p.s.  i have crossed 4 out of the 11 things off my list ;)